Sorry

I had to. I got a twitter:

https://twitter.com/Nixemus

I was right

She has a boyfriend. At least I think she does. Some tall blonde guy she was in the gym with. I mean I can't strike a conversation with her with that guy around, I mean what if they are an item and he thinks I'm making a move? I'd be screwed.

For the time being, I'll just hope its her roomate.

Sad face.

Stupid

I am such an idiot. I met the girl I saw the other day in the lift today, but it was full of people. You know the kind of atmosphere where no-one talks? It was one of those, and I wanted to say; "By the way, I'm Jason." as an invitation to find out her name, but I couldn't say anything! I said "hi" and "bye", but that was it! When could I possibly see her again?

God I'm stupid sometimes. I hate myself.

New Layout

I have a new layout, and I quite like it. You can now subscribe to the right. Please. Please, someone subscribe? Anyone?

Anyway, the podcast is going well, we're giving out daily updates, and I have been given an editing job! I like to think I'm quite good.

I also started a Barbershop Quartet. Once we get going it could be a lot of fun, although we'd have to arrange all the stuff we sing ourselves. But we'd specialise in comedy stuff. Should be good!

'Till next time.

Update

Huh, alcohol really does reveal ones true opinions.

Needless to say, all my problems appear to stem from sex these days.

What a suprise.

Water water everywhere, and not a drop to drink

I feel as if i'm drowning. Quite literally. Sometimes, if I think too much in lectures, I feel as if i'm slowly suffocating; and sometimes late at night when I'm by myself. Sometimes I just feel so heavy that I wish the ground would open up already.

I think it all stems from this girl I met. She lives in the same building as I do, and I think we got on really well together, you know, better than just someone else. But I'm just worried that I'm not going to see her again. I know, she lives above me in the same building, how could I not see her again! But she goes to a different uni than I do, she has different friends, different timetable; it might be nigh on impossible? Perhaps I'm being to selfish? Why would she have any interest in me? A geeky guy who couldn't do anything but music and ended up flunking everything else because he just didn't care? How do I even know if she's single?

I'm beginning to think I over analyse things, but then I would want to go and analyse that, which invariably proves it right. Sometimes I just wish I would chill out, but I just don't know how. I've been rejected romantically so many times that sometimes I just want to give up. In fact I have, several times, but something, hope? It draws me back. And I fail. Over and over again.

I think I'm suffering from depression, but in this world, who would notice? Or care?

Water water everywhere, and not a drop to drink.